I WAS DISVIRGINED AT THE AGE OF 5yrs....PLS I NEED

Hi firstclass newsline, plz hide my i.d nd inform me wen postd, dis is
d first tym am writin in 2yrs wen my present bf invited me to dis
group.. am in my early 20s dating a guy in his early 30s nd am done
with my N.D, i ws disvirgined wen i ws 5yrs nd i grow up in sex..
truly my bf has been doin evrytn to stop me frm my formal self evn
though he knw its nt easy aftr he heard tinz abt my old self frm
frnds,my sis nd me abt hw i flirt, cheat, double dat etc with oder
men, he still stood by me.. yes i still cheatd on him early wen we
began d relatnship wen i ws nt sure of his luv, hv told him tinz abt
me nd hv done tinz dat he had d ryt to leave me bt den i ws nvr in luv
with him bt he still stand by me.. presently am deeply in luv with him
nd still fightn to withstand d spirit of my formal self nd honestly
its nt easy, jst one week i trlvd to d state whr my parents base, i
had a drm i slept with an ex which i did tell him nd he encouraged me
to be strng nd stay off my ex (i bearly drm note my drmz do cum real
or chng its turn wen cuming real), to cut d story short last nyt i
tryd telln him d truth dat i cheatd on him bt wen i noiced he ws getn
angry i chngd d true story nd lied i honesty wntd to get drank bfor
confirming d whole truth to him so i could nt feel d painsnd b
truthful in tall d truth bt dis morning he chatd with my ex whom i
cheatd on him with nd my ex blow evryrn to him.. my problm is dis, i
knw i hv messed up nd he can nvr trust, blv or luv me agn.. i also knw
he can nvr hv any furture with me agn bt nw i really luv dis guy, i
jst need ur help nd advise to go abt my present state, is eithr i
learn hw to start living without him or fight for my man's luv trust
nd blv, nd also fight dis spirit honestly its nt easy presently i feel
lyk begining dis lyf agn.. tnk u for ur help

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